Frankly Speaking.

Hello. Tiff was left behind at Terminal 1 earlier this morning. HAHA. Nobody offered to bring an extra luggage to put me in. Hmm. But nvm, I'm expecting a trolley-full of presents upon their return and pictures with me photoshop-ed inside.

Anyway, I shall also do some reflections I think but mine is abit more special la hor. HAHA! Dont need to follow the questions.

Indeed I was devastated when the doc said I was unfit for the Cambodia Trip. Having been through everything. The interview where a few of my friends didn't make it through, leaving only me and Jolie in our class usual clique of friends. Nonetheless, both of us were very excited about the trip, discussing about what we will be doing there and how many more days till the departure. The first briefing, the booth duty, the vaccinations, the preparations for the nasi lemak, the pre-departure briefing, I've all gone through it. In the end, I was only part of it. Not in it.

I'm disappointed cos I've been looking forward to sharing rooms with my 2 besties, limhuiwen and jolielee. Looking forward for everything, making nasi lemak, playing with the kids there, sight-seeing, building that house, making soap and distributing them, experiencing bus break-downs (hope there will not be!) and many many more. I guess I'm deprived of all these now.

I ever did harbor the thought of not telling mr ben and ms lai about the heart palpitations, at least I will still be able to go for the trip and wait till when I'm back for the further checks. But after some serious considerations, though it was tough, I've decided to tell them about the condition instead because I guess I can't be so selfish. Going on the trip, knowing that I might not be well very often during the trip and thus affecting everyone, the whole group. I will be having fun but at the expense of 20 others.

I know I'll still be able to go on other trips like this in the future but the people, the companion, the whole fun going along will be different. This is an opportunity, too good that I've missed.

But still, HAVE A SAFE TRIP EVERYONE!! I will be waiting for ur return, with my stuffs of cos. :D and also! the stories that you people will be sharing with me! :)